So far, on the weekly shots.. I am doing really well..
I seem to have calmed down even more.. I'm happy.. more energetic.. my voice is dropping VERY fast.. I can barely do the toddler voice anymore -- I'm definitely losing the ability to do it..
The body hair is getting thicker and more coarse.. I have a mini-goatee goin on.. my mustache is insane..
My face looks so different already.. my butt is shrinking again.. I think I'm losing weight..
I like what's happening.. I just don't like that I'm breaking out with pimples again.. ack!
I'm not usually full of myself.. but I'm turning into one very sexy boy!
So yeah.. everything is going surprisingly well, with me being on the shot! .. I can't believe it.. I am actually quite surprised how calm and level and happy I am.. and I just had a really crappy day the other day.. I was starving, had no money, and got kicked out of my house..
But I wiped away my tears, packed up my things, and did what I had to do to fix the situation.
My doctor switched me to injections!!
I had my first shot yesterday!.. eeeeee!
I felt like I was floating on a happy cloud all day.. I am SO happy, I can't describe it!
Yes, there was some concern, both from me and my doctor.. about the injection agitating my pre-existing mental issues.. but my moods have been very stable this past while, and I have been frustrated at how slow the changes were coming.. so I asked my doctor if I could possibly switch to weekly injections.
He agreed, but said we will keep a close eye on things, and if there are any drastic mood changes, I will be switched back to the gel. He would not do bi-weekly shots.. understandably so.. I didn't want them, anyway. That's just too much T in my system at once.
Another reason I wanted to switch was.. the gel costs 150 dollars a month.. and is not covered by my prescription plan. The injectable forms of testosterone are completely covered by said prescription plan..
There was also the issue of convenience.
It's so hard to remember to apply the gel.. and you have to make sure you've showered first, or you have to wait until 6 hours after you've applied it, to shower.
With the weekly injection, all I have to do is go to the doctors office once a week, and get injected by a nurse.
I left for Edmonton early Tuesday morning.. the bus was delayed by an hour though. I got to Edmonton two hours before my appointment, but took a cab to the hospital right away, and went to Dr. Warnekes'soffice.
Because I got there early, he saw me early.. I saw one of his interns first though. I didn't like her.. and didn't understand why it was necessary for me to talk to her. I didn't understand why Dr. Warneke couldn't just ask me those questions himself.
Anyways, he wanted to talk surgery.. as did I.
Talking about a hysterectomy was an option, but I opted out of getting a referral for that, for the time being. I told him I'm more concerned about chest surgery right now. I explained that it's very difficult to pass because my chest is so large.. and that I often don't want to leave the house, because I'm so self conscious about it.. he then told me that he knows that sometimes it's impossible for a transguy to do his RLT before he's had chest surgery, and that he will sent in a referral to Dr. De Haas, right away. (Dr. De Haas is a plastic surgeon here in Calgary, who actually works out of the hospital I was in.)
Logan (my ex boyfriend) got a referral to the same guy.. and went for his consult a couple months ago. He told me De Haas said that he will not operate on anyone who hasn't done at least 3 years of RLT and been on Testosterone for at least a year.
I told Warneke this, and Warneke said he's never heard of that before. He said that if he gives the referral, the surgeon will trust his opinion, and not make a person wait that long. He wondered if it was him who gave the referral, or just Jablonski. I remember that Jablonski did originally give Logan the referral.. but I had thought he had a second one sent in by Warneke.
Warneke did tell me to call De Haas's office in a week, if they haven't already called me. He also said that if De Haas tells me I have to go by the standards he mentioned to Logan, I should contact him and tell him.. and then he'll talk to De Haas personally.. because it's not right that he make a person wait that long. In the Standards Of Care, it says a person doesn't have to do their RLT for more than a year, before being eligible for SRS, never mind chest surgery.. and most surgeons don't require a patient to be on hormones at all, before they operate.
Hopefully I don't have to wait too long.
By the way, I fixed my binder. Sewed it all up.. it's ike new now =). but I'm still probably going to buy another one soon.
I'm passing ALOT more now.. it's awesome.. I'm not used to it yet.. so it makes me giddy everytime it happens.. I even pass on the phone -- some telemarketer called me the other day and kept calling me "sir".. and the taxi driver called me "sir" twice, in person.. and the other day, some dude sitting at the computer next to me said "take it easy, bud" when he was saying good night to me and going back to his room (I'm in the hospital at the moment, for a medical problem)..
SO not used to all this.. lol.. but I'm loving it.
I ripped my binder today.. when I was trying to adjust it..
I'm really sad..
It was right in the armpit area.. so I'm spilling out all over the place.. and sadly it's the only binder I have now.. =(
I have hair EVERYWHERE!
Here's some pictures:
Tummy
Chin
Mustache
Thigh
Inner thigh
Legs
Toes (EW!)
Arm