Dear GOD.. the horny won't ever stop!
I can't stop jerking off!
.. I think I've rubbed myself completely raw. =/
Maybe that was too much information, but I don't really care.. I'm shameless ;)

Yeah, my sex drive just keeps getting worse and worse..
I check out women shamelessly in public.. sometimes I don't even realize I'm doing it! .. lol..
I feel the need to lift things and be physically active..
I'm passing a little bit more..
But my voice isn't very deep yet, so I have to force it to go deeper if I really want to sound masculine.
There are times when I try, and times when I don't feel like it..
I can't wait til I get to the point where it's effortless to be seen as male.

Here are some voice clips:
(just so you know, I can do a cartoon-like "toddler" voice, and I'm also keeping track of how that has changed.)

The toddler voice at 5 months:
http://media.putfile.com/toddler-voice-at-5-months

The highest my voice can go at 5 months:
http://media.putfile.com/The-highest-my-voice-can-go-at-5-months

The lowest my voice can go at 5 months:
http://media.putfile.com/The-lowest-my-voice-can-go-at-5-months
 
I have more mustache hairs, and some dark chin hairs!

I'm also still noticing dark hairs creeping up all over my body..
My voice is bouncing back and forth..
But I haven't had any T in a couple weeks now.. and my progress has pretty much plateaued.. and uh.. my emotions and mental state.. are a complete mess.

Some pictures of my facial hairs below, and my first video in my video blog about my transition.
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Dark, coarser hairs are cropping up on my arms..
My tummy is fuzzy..
My crotch hair is INSANE.. I need to shave it.
I have a bit of moustache coming in. It's pretty light still.. but there's some dark hairs in there..
My face is slightly more masculine..
My ass is like, non-existant, compared to before.
My voice is significantly deeper.. still not as deep as I want it though.
I'm passing about one third of the time now.. which is a HUGE improvement for me.

Negative stuff:
The hornyness is INSANE!! It's freaking insatiable!
.. and the acne.. oh god.. it's getting REALLY bad.. =/
I even have a little bit of bacne.
 
One month on testosterone.
I have really bad rage. I'm trying to learn how to handle it, but it's difficult.
I have one very dark, coarse hair popping up on my chest.
I think my voice has deepened slightly.
I also think my fat is redistributing slightly.
My dicklet is continuing to grow.
I have alot of blonde hairs on my face.
I'm stronger.
The horny-ness never bloody stops.. my little guy actually gets hard when I'm aroused.
The acne is a bit worse.
 
So, I've been on testosterone for 2 weeks now, and in that time, I have noticed the following things:

-pimples
-increased sex drive
-tiredness
-irritability
-clitoral (or "dicklet") growth
-a bit of bloating in my face

First post!

12/30/2007

 

I just started testosterone yesterday (Saturday December 29th, 2007)
This will be my transition journal.. where I write about the changes I notice, etc.. as well as other aspects of my transition.

My doctor started me on Androgel, a topical form of testosterone, which I need to apply to my stomach, chest, upper arms and shoulders daily.
He started me off on the gel, because I have pre-existing mood disorders and since testosterone can increase anger, irritability, and rage.. he wants to ease me into it so I don't lose control.
He's also started me off on a very low dose of the gel. It's in a pump.. so one pump a day for the first week, then 2 the next, then 3, then 4. 4 per day is the standard dosage for the gel.